9/11

I was just reading a friends blog as she recounted her memory of this day 7 years ago and I thought I would write about mine.  I was 7 1/2 months pregnant with Jailyn and working as a receptionist at an Escrow company we were all just getting into the office when my boss ran in and turned on the tv in the break room and told us all to get in there a plane just crashed into the World trade center towers.  Like most I'm sure that watched it on TV I thought at first that it looked like some kind of action movie stunt not real life, but as I watched people jumping from windows hundreds of feet from the ground to save themselves it hit me this is REAL!  This country, our country, my country was being attacked in broad daylight in the most dramatic and visible way.  I remember thinking that this shouldn't be able to happen here.  We weren't living in some war torn 3rd world country this is the USA we were supposed to be unstoppable!!  We never left that back room that day all of us to stuck to the TV waiting to see what happened next and I think a little afraid to be alone.  I remember being soo scared for Jailyn this little Innocent child I was getting ready to bring into this world, thinking until that morning that I could keep her safe and realizing in that moment that was impossible.  I remember crying for those who were there or lost someone that day ( as I am right now while writing this) because I could not even imagine the pain for them so connected to it if mine so far away was this great.  

I was thinking of all these things just this morning in my car while dropping kids off at school.  A radio station was playing a country song written about 9/11 and I started to cry thinking about it again.  I thought to myself if 9/11 had never happened how would my life be different today I would still be driving kids to school and thinking about back to school night tonight but I wouldn't be crying in the car to God bless the USA on the radio and I wouldn't be fearful every time someone I love steps on a plane.  Those are just small effects but it goes to show that all of us no matter how far from NY that day 7 years ago changed us ALL!!  My prayers for safety, love and healing to you all and to everyone who was affected by 9/11 on this day especially we should all stop and think and pray!!!  All my love.

nat